In recent years, really after high school, I started getting enthusiastic feedback about my writing and being told, "your a good writer" That gave me confidence and made it easier for me to write for any assignments i had for the rest of my college career.
But that was about it; I also like many people, suffer from anxiety and occasional depression. I hated, i mean HATED journaling, even though that is what my mom and so many others told me to do to help me cope. I either felt like my brain was moving way faster than my pen or typing. and i just thought what is the point of puking all this negative garbage in my head on paper.
Then it was almost like an epiphany. One day during one of my low days, i just felt like i needed to write it out, write how I'm feeling. I think the first one was actually about dating and how terrified I was to get into a real relationship. Being vulnerable can be scary!
Anyhoo, I just began to write...and it turned into my first poem. It was so cathartic! writing was finally cathartic for me, but not in the way others thought it would. writing poems became and is one of the ways now that help me get through the gobblyguck that makes my head spin sometimes.
At first I really could only write a good poem when it was for a therapeutic purpose. Now it is still fueled by inspiration, but not only out of angst. I am so happy and blessed that G-d bestowed this gift upon me and am so happy to be able to share a part of my soul with you through my poetry on this platform.