A Love I Didn’t Know
Why, why must I build walls around my heart.
Please, I'm begging, pleading for your love.
I'm captured still, a slave to you.
My fear is gone but you do not remain.
Everything has disappeared but my tears cling to my cheeks.
My mouth forms your name, your's alone.
One day under the trees, caught in the wind.
At the hour of a beginning where the heart beats fast.
Or in the night, shown true by electric light.
Or in the heat among gaiety of summer strife.
A fall night in the coldness of my heart, a birthday alone.
Before rest, pain - deathly and agonizing.
I scream, why! What have I done to you?
For you and you alone loved me more than the very Gods in Heaven
and it's a shame I didn't know.
I tell myself to let go but your touch has tattooed my soul,
buried me in my sorrow and scorched my heart of the purest love.
I shall wake up each day knowing you wrap your arms around another.
And I am here, angered at my own foolishness.
Your smell, your breathe, your warm touch, no longer mine.
For you loved me, I loved you and I didn't know it.