A Mockery

Just when I thought I found the beauty in me
Life started coming at me
Trying to break me
Projecting smoking mirrors all around me
Preventing me from trying
To uplift myself
When I feel as if I am
Giving my best
Repeatedly life shows me how
I keep failing this test
Thrown at me
People who pretend surround me
Not happy when I profess my insecurities
Even though I am all ears
When they need me
Ain't got no place to get away
Each moment, each minute from day to day
I pray for someone to save me
'Cause I haven't been able to save myself
In the mist of every storm
I call out to the heavens for peace
Or better yet a bittersweet release
Still even when the tides die down for a spell
I am still stuck on this landless sail
Still trying to capture that beauty in me
That I thought I could see