Unworthy of your love as you made me out to be.
Proving that I couldn't have consistency
that I wasn't made for stability.
Trying to face this harsh reality.
That door you shoved in my face is my only mentality.
I know that I'm loved and God wants me, but your closing that door was traumatizing.
You haunt me.
You left, but forgot to take my questions -3 years with no answers-
You spiral through my mind again and again.
You are never ending.
I can't blame you.
Your choices were few.
I wouldn't have chosen me too.
I walk through my mind day in and day out,
but walking through your maze frightens me.
I always end up back at start where you left and I had to keep going.
Where you chose him and drugs and I had to choose to keep breathing.
Affection is what I seek.
Oh, how my heart weeps
for a love that I never received.