I want to disappear from here to a place far away
A place that doesn't have this strong sense of pain
A haven to rebuild and retain, that calm serenity
Where life doesn't get in the way of accomplishment or completion
We can all be one without question
Run! I need to hide
I feel the swelling hurt rise
I can't let the children see this side of me
This crying wreck that's helpless
Hurting, yearning to feel good about myself
Why can't I fit into the life I live, to the community?
Why aren't I good enough for my family, myself?
I want to be free
To feel peace
To get a release
I just want the weight lifted,
Hate shifted to that other place
The one that's not disgraced
By my actions or reactions
Faced with dissatisfaction
Are you there?
Do you care?
Do you exist?
In the mist