Digressing from a forgotten love

Having this empty conversation

Leads me to my current revelation

Six months and eight days to go

Before I escape from feeling so low

Judged by the decisions I made

Yet unaware of the scars that cannot fade

I sit and listen alone

While all my emotions are gone.

Alone I lay and think

About the unbreakable link

Between living and dying

I promise I am not lying.

Sometimes I wish I could just die

A feeling that brings me high.

Sometimes I feel like crying

A thing that’s not worth trying

I wish I wasn’t born

Because I am so torn.

I remember finally trusting

In the razor I left rusting

Right next to the foot of my bed

The thoughts of you still in my head.

I miss you so bad

The thought just makes me sad.

The nine months we spent together

Should’ve ended in forever.

The only guy to make me feel alive

That made my heart take a happy dive

I love you still day by day

There’s nothing more I can really say.