I want to scream, say it to everyone.
Verbal knots in my throat, i cant say anything.
They wont budge, unmoving, unforgiving.
It becomes so overwhelming i could cry.
White hot anger, i want to hide.
Down a rabbit hole, anywhere but here.
I want to be anyone but ME.
I feel like im branded, a joke .
That everyone gets, everyone except me.
I can't find the funny.
The laugh now never comes, but the cry later never leaves.
I see the world turning but it never turns for me.
I bide my distemper, but the build up isn't worth the wait.
Letting go is so easy, but i've got an iron grip.