Do you understand me?


Sometimes I like to think about,
all of the mistakes I made,
all the pain I went through,
all the trust I lost.
But I can't help to feel,
exceedingly proud,
with all the mistakes I made
all the pain I went through,
all the trust I lost.

Bet you think I'm going to feel bad,
regretting my mistakes but I'm just human,
so sorry, that I'm not perfect,
but if you would of cared that wouldn't of mattered.
Every time some one hurt me I just forgave them,
maybe that's my problem.
I let people walk all over me,
easily give up on my dreams to support them,
sadly.
No ones ever supported me I swear it true,
Had to work hard for everything I do,
nothing was ever handed to me.
Never got any support for my dreams,
maybe that's why I grew up so lost.

Maybe its all my fault,
I wasn't a perfect child,
causing problems for no reason at all.
because they were trying to teach me,
a lesson I just wasn't getting yet.
Maybe I'm just being defensive,
but what do you expect growing up under constant attack.
I don't want to hear it,
I'm just torn its not like I didn't have a loving family,
people to hold me, friends to kill time.
Maybe my sickness is to much for them?
Like they can't believe it lasted this long.
Ask my family it never ends.

Is it no wonder why I sit alone now,
Lost in my head how,
I think about the pain I cause my self.
Its not like I'm self destructive,
I might overthink things,
Probably over thinking now.
Music it the only thing that lets me vent it out.
I don't believe I'm healthy,
Probably toxic,
don't believe me?
Maybe it just in my head and I'm chill,
I don't think so,
Doctor says I have ptsd,
I can see it.
But how did I get it?
Do you understand me?

Sometimes I like to think about,
all of the mistakes I made,
all the pain I went through,
all the trust I lost.
But I can't help to feel,
exceedingly proud,
with all the mistakes I made
all the pain I went through,
all the trust I lost.

Screamed into the void,
until I'm screaming into me.

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