I feel the weight of your expectations thrown upon me
A familiar weight in which I have lived with
I feel myself disintegrating into the unknown
For I don’t know how to hold myself up anymore.
It’s a shame for me to say I don’t feel my fire
The joy I used to live with has been forever gone
I cannot help but crushingly yell for assistance
I’m drowning in hell and I cannot resist this.
The coldness of your words freeze my heart
I expected an answer but not what I heard
Sometimes just knowing don’t mean it’s enough
But, then again, not knowing gives me the comfort
Of not feeling shame for my actions that pushed you away.
You don’t understand how much of a feeble I’ve been
Trying my best but I don’t seem to fit in
The place that I one day wish to be
But all knowing me, I cannot achieve.
And yet one more chance is all what I ask
To prove myself that I can very much last
For my mind can be dull and so can my vision
But my heart won’t ever be, just now it’s at a collision.