Wanting something real, never deserving it.
Want to start a fire, can't get it lit.
Wishing I didn't sabatoge everything in my life.
Wish it wasn't full of so much strife.
Needing to feel real emotions again.
Need to find at least one good friend.
Hating the way I feel about myself.
Hate that I can't ever get any help.
Dreaming one day I'll be whole again.
Dream about how it all will end.
Giving more then I possibly can.
Give anything to find a real man.
Lying about how I feel inside.
Lie, then run away and hide.
Felling nothing in my heart.
Feel like I've been torn apart.