I tell myself go back to school,
Be all you can be
Spend a year all kinds of broke
Just to go far enough to believe,
The one year ended,
I passed yay me.
But then it all went crazy,
Want to know, Have a seat.
After four interviews,
A job was offered.
Seemed like a great place to start.
Said I wanted to commit myself,
Three years sounded good.
Full time work with benefits and retirement,
Be a fool not to accept.
Signed the papers and began work,
Time flew like a bird,
Orientation for 90 days,
Nah, let's make it 60.
So, decided to cover others call
Others shifts when they need off.
Made myself so exhausted,
Way past wore out.
Here I am at six months in,
And what do I have to show.
I show dedication,
throughout my days at work.
The favor of coverage, does it get paid back?
No, it gets forgot.
I go on and on through the many days,
With the feeling of wonder.
Wonder of why,
Why am I so nice, so dedicated?
Well now we are here at present day,
A day like all others.
But this day it became clear,
The whispering, the looks.
I see it all around me,
From people I thought were friends.
Nice to you face to face when they want something,
But let the wheels turn.
Now I need help, and, where are you?
I call your name and your nowhere near,
Hurry now the doctor is waiting, they say,
But I just got started and need help.
I try to organize but I just keep getting more and more.
You say the doctor is ready, but I received no help,
I can't possibly be ready for him,
What's he need, what's he want?
Can someone tell me that?
I'm doing the best I can,
Although I am struggling.
You want to give me lunch?
Sorry about this back table,
I could have used some help.
It's okay you say, just go eat.
So, I scarf down some lunch,
And cut my break short.
I rush back to the room,
And as I walk back through the door
I catch the doctor giving me a dirty look,
He thinks I don’t hear him
But clear as day he say's
What is he doing back in here?
I gladly leave the room,
And report to the front desk,
Was instructed to go help clean rooms.
Since they were finished with their cases.
Each one I walk into,
All eyes land on me.
The whispering starts up again,
What did I do, did I say something wrong?
I ask for help and I'm avoided like the atomic plague,
I run my butt off all day to help make your job easier,
And in return, no thanks I get,
But instead, the cold shoulder.
You once said I have a friend in you,
But now I see it was followed by a request.
So here me now the answer is NO,
I have other plans,
You're on your own.
So now the day is over,
I make it home at last.
My friends back home I miss,
But they never contact me first.
I never hear from you unless I pick up the phone,
Do I call? Do I text?
Do I even bother at all?
As I now sit here and ponder,
And the tears roll down my face.
All these years when people say,
Were friends forever, do hesitate to call.
How many lies was I told,
I move two hours away and never hear from you,
But yet, were friends forever,
And yet, I feel all alone.
Its days like today
Where a friend I have none.
I sit here and cry,
Wishing, hoping, praying for good.
I do good for others and close to none done for me,
But I guess I will have to move on,
Go to work, face them all,
Come home and hide in my cubby.
Where I am out of site out of mind.
You haven't called, nor texted, nor emailed,
I suppose you have moved on,
I may move away but your still in my heart,
Why do you not contact me I may never know?
But one thing is true enough,
You may have all those I once did,
But see it through my eyes now,
I'm all ALONE!!!!