Here in my thoughts alone I feel like the world is caving in on me. I can't breathe sometimes knowing that it would be a challenge to conceive again. My heart drops of disappointment and cry to myself not understanding why or what did I do to cause this curse upon me. No one knows that I be depressed sometimes or I drive in silence in my thoughts and I look at the sky filled with tears. I wonder sometimes will my partner leave me or will my partner step out on me for something that's out of my hands and out of my control. I try to keep faith and I try to pray about it but days turn into weeks and weeks turn into months and months turn into years. I feel like someone ripped my heart out and kicked me in my stomach. I beat myself up every other day with no one genuinely to talk to, to confide in to understand how I feel I just feel alone.