Forgivness

I remember the words I said,
as clear as day a knife in my gut.
I try to face you but look away,
nothing but a coward.
I run wishing I could disappear,
I am so stupid.
Why can’t I say two simple words?
Its not pride its fear.
When I look at your face what will I see?
One glance at mine will reveal guilt in its heaviest form.
I hide away and tears fall,
I wish they wouldn't I don't deserve to cry.
A tap on my shoulder,
I look up and see the one thing I needed.
The face of forgiveness.
I throw my self at you.
The words I couldn't say rushing out with my tears.
Thank you for loving this useless idiot.