I Was Afraid
I was afraid to love you.
I was afraid to let you get close
But, I let you in anyways.
Because I had hope that this wouldn't be
Like the last time.
I was afraid that once you knew me,
The real me,
You'd leave and find someone new,
Happy and whole to
Learn to love, and never think about me again.
You were the second.
No, the first.
To hold my hand through the fire
"It only burns if you continue to
Stand on the coals and
Let it burn you".
You were my hero
But, then something changed
You stopped holding my hand
And, you stopped acknowledging me
You left me on the burning coal.
No, you pushed ne back
And, watched me fall.
You stepped on me
And you wouldn’t let me up.
You took what was left of me
And, threw it away like it was dust.
You tore apart everything I had left.
And I was afraid to love you.
But, I let you in.
And that was the worst mistake
Because, now no matter how hard I try
I can never learn to love again.