It all started with a simple Facebook comment.
"Lookin' spiffy bud"
I mean, it had a winking emoji and everything!
And he commented back.
I feel this little pain in my chest.
The feeling that I don't like this. This needs to stop.
But I can't do anything.
He's not in my life anymore. I don't rule him.
He can do what he wants.
He can have Justina.
And I know. I know it was an innocent thing.
But devastation still swirls around my body engulfing my thoughts.
And I tell myself to calm down.
You wanted this.
He wanted this.
But you accepted it. You accepted it and moved on.
It's almost been a year, and he is still on my mind.
One year from when we met.
One year from when I was Justina.
I was the flirty comment.
I was the winking emoji.
I was the one complimenting him.
Now, I am the one hiding behind an iPhone screen.
And Justina is the one.
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