Everything has changed from gray to dark.
My mental health has gone from loved to no spark.
Being indoors feels like so much more than a lock down.
The doors to my dreams close like every city and town.
I feel more trapped in my head than physically indoors.
I feel like tearing open my mental floorboards.
I wake up everyday expecting the day to fly by.
I wake up everyday expecting me to not even try.
Going out and seeing the masks and signs hurt.
The dark memories that make me feel lower than dirt.
Wishing everything was perfect like before.
When I cared about myself, going out, and what I wore.
I remember I used to believe in others and myself.
Now I just stay locked inside with poor mental health.
My heart is broken and it feels torn apart.
Panic and anxiety comes back when the memories start.
I used to worry more about others than me.
Can't believe the person I was, I miss who I used to be.