I don't know where to go.
I don't know what to do.
My love. My affection. My comfort.
Once requested. Now in full abort.
Past mistakes inflicted a heavy toll.
Boundless depression now pervades my soul.
Failure is common outside of Heaven.
Repentance to God and lover given.
Two paths diverge in the cold, dark distance.
Life's limit determined in an instant.
Past pain, regret, fear lie heavily,
Smothering every good memory.
Laughter, intimacy, loving compassion,
Promised eternal love, all somehow forgotten.
To choose the path of destructiveness,
Or to follow the path of forgiveness?
The choice seemingly clear,
But evil plagues the mind with fear.
Time and space become the enemy,
Forging a fatal new normalcy.
Prayers beg love's light to shine.
To restore a marriage to God's vine.
Hope. Faith. Love. My only tools,
To rescue my family from ungodly ghouls.
My heart IS pain, my mind, body weak.
Breathing barely. My lover's mercy I seek.