call me crazy, but i don't care.
i actually think my derealization disorder
is helping me more than it probably should.
now i'm able to look at the world around me
with a blur erasing out the darkness
i would normally see.
it makes me feel so numb,
to the point where i can no longer feel pain.
as if i left the shell i called my body
and am viewing my life as a film,
right before my eyes.