My Mental Illness

I grew up feeling different
Just not quite the same
I wonder how long it'll be
Before I'm free again
Inside, my mind is shattered
Broken pieces on the floor
Meds put them back together
I'll be sad no more
But only for a while
Not a permanent fix
Electrocute my brain
To learn how it ticks
Then again and again
To change my personality
These dark spots that grow
Memories that are lost in me
Better than the alternative
Stuck in a padded room
Scratches up and down the walls
Visitors might be coming soon
Fresh air is what I crave
To see the sky again
To feel the sun beams on my face
For a time sanity will reign