What happened to today?
What happened to tomorrow?
Where is the the consistency?
Where is the stability, the security?
How do I know that this is only temporary?
How do I know that this is not a curse?
When will the time come where enough is enough?
Where my actions, my phrases, my emotion, my cries and my voice will all make sense
I can start now, I can be better now
I can deal with it now by saying no more
No more sorrys
No more guilt
No more telling myself it's going to be ok when it's hard to believe it
No more long paragraphs and desperate pleas to hear or feel what I should already know
No more clues or proof will be asked
What I see is what I will believe
What I hear is what I will keep in mind
& what I feel will be my guide