On a journey to nowhere fast
Today and many days I wake up and think God has forgotten about me or
that I have disappointed him so many times that he no longer hears my sorrows.
My heart breaks little by little as I write this because I feel trapped!
Trapped inside my head, trapped inside my failures, and trapped inside of my longing
for doing "better". I can't even tell you what better is, but I am sure it's better than what I doing
at this exact moment.
It's funny how around me I have so much to be thankful for, but some how my focus always turns
into what I am missing or lacking. I try to stay hopeful but inside I'm hopeless.
I try to have faith, but all along it's wavering.
What can I do to escape this wall of mental turmoil? How can I see the light at the end of the tunnel?
I ask God and I will continue to ask him to show me the way because right now I am blind.