Overdose

By Alexis    Alexis

Overdose

I wonder..
How many pills does it take to kill you before you overdose?
Would it be 9, 10, 11, 12, 13... the most?
I don't think no one really knows.. that's why they just get bottles and handfuls..
And swallow..
How many pills do you have to swallow before the contents of the pills eats you alive?
Before your stomach acid dissolves the outer coating and then it starts to eat your insides..
Destroying, disfiguring and changing your inner core, your mold, your mind
mold that God took his time to perfectly make..
Until it rattles your whole vessel, demeanor and focus like a 10.0 EaRtHqUaKe.
Me personally, I would never take my life when it wasn't given to me to take.
But sometimes things happen to where I feel like i'm dead inside and if not dead, close to a break...
Correction and truth.
I'm already broken.
Shattered and in pieces like a broken mirror or video arcade tokens.
I might as well write the word fragile across my forehead.
I'm to the point where if I swallow any more pills.. ill be dead.
My heart would be cold as ice.. brushing all emotions to the side like a street sweeper..
Putting my wall back up like the dams are done by the beavers.
Lets go deeper...
Its hurts to look in the condensation-ed mirror and don't recognize who is staring back..
I'm disappointed in me because I promised myself I would never allow anyone to make me feel like that..
Trying to be what others wanted me to be ran me dry like the Sahara's Deserts heat cracks..
I feel like Mommy would be disappointed because she raised me better than that.
Trying to make everyone else happy while I'm swallowing pills inside.
Pills that aren't doing anything but tearing down my character, my personality, my charisma and happiness inside.
Second guessing myself as if something is wrong with me..
Girl.. Breathe...
(Swallow)
I just had to swallow another because something hurtful also slipped out this vent.
I need another shot to help these pills kick it quicker..
Or maybe I should Overdose

I wonder..
How many pills does it take to kill you before you overdose?
Would it be 9, 10, 11, 12, 13... the most?
I dont think no one really knows.. thats why they just get bottles and handfuls..
And swallow..
How many pills do you have to swallow before the contents of the pills eats you alive?
Before your stomach acid disolves the outer coating and then it starts to eat your insides..
Destroying, disfiguring and changing your inner core, your mold, your mind
mold that God took his time to perfectly make..
Until it rattles your whole vessel, demeanor and focus like a 10.0 EaRtHqUaKe.
Me personally, I would never take my life when it wasnt given to me to take.
But sometimes things happen to where I feel like im dead inside and if not dead, close to a break...
Correction and truth.
Im already broken.
Shattered and in pieces like a broken mirror or video arcade tokens.
I might as well write the word fragile across my forehead.
Im to the point where if I swallow any more pills.. ill be dead.
My heart would be cold as ice.. brushing all emotions to the side like a street sweeper..
Putting my wall back up like the dams are done by the beavers.
Lets go deeper...
Its hurts to look in the condensationed mirror and dont recognize who is staring back..
Im disappointed in me because I promised myself I would never allow anyone to make me feel like that..
Trying to be what others wanted me to be ran me dry like the Saharas Deserts heat cracks..
I feel like Mommy would be disappointed because she raised me better than that.
Trying to make everyone else happy while Im swallowing pills inside.
Pills that arent doing anything but tearing down my character, my personality, my charisma and happiness inside.
Second guessing myself as if something is wrong with me..
Girl.. Breathe...
(Swallow)
I just had to swallow another because something hurtful also slipped out this vent.
I need another shot to help these pills kick it quicker..
Or maybe I should regurgitate and start over because i'm only getting sicker..
and start over because i'm only getting sicker..

Poem Rating:
Click To Rate This Poem!

Continue Rating Poems


Share This Poem