Realize

Sometimes
I tend to realize…
I miss you.
Your smile
Your laugh
The way you say my name
When we laugh
After one of your many
Inappropriate jokes
That always leave me flustered.
And yet
I enjoy them
Cause they always leave you
Smiling your amazing smile
That matches your beautiful eyes
Of that mocha brown color
That reminds me
Of snowy winter days
That I used to hate
But now
I love them
Just like I realize
I love you.
But I can’t be
With you
Because you’re already
In love
With HER
Brae.
And I want you
To be happy
Even if
It’s not with me
Even if
It leaves me broken hearted
Even if
You can never be mine
Even if
I will never be
In your arms
Surrounded by warmth
And guitar music
And you
Just you
You.
And then I realize
That though I love you
You can NEVER
Be mine.
Only in
My deepest dreams
And memories.
For your happiness
Means more
To me
Than my own.