Red letter

How do I begin to write this?
Especially since you were a good fit
For me, and my life.

Blurred my memory,
And a loss of energy.
All I could remember
Are those laughters,
That declared you the best member.

How did I not see
What you’ve done to me.
I guess I was too nice
To start a fight.

Giving you unlimited chances
To identify different circumstances.
Believing you'd change,
Although it was out of range.
Thinking you were different,
And not ignorant.

Now I wonder,
What you were under.
Making you comfortable,
To watch me feel vulnerable.