There’s been times I couldn’t breath with just the thought of you leaving me. It’s exactly how I pictured things would be ending in hoarer like a hoarer movie. Now I’m wondering why I even pushed play. I just keep on watching I cant look away. My body is shivering, fears written all over my face, as the hoarer continues my heart starts to race. I’ve been waiting and waiting for the movie to finally end, but I just push rewind and play it again. I wish I could just push stop to end the movie, but it just keeps on playing in slow motion constantly. It scares me to death I cant sleep at night, and as I watch with my arms wrapped around my pillow so tight….. I’m wondering why I keep on watching the movie. When it scares me so bad my heart keeps beating rapidly. I know it’s just causing me a great deal of pain to stay. I love him to much though to just walk away. Now I wonder why I even continue this tale, I try to continue on and every time I fail. I just get so scared I bottle up and hide. I tell myself that it just wont work you already tried. I’ve been waiting and waiting for this to finally end, but I just push rewind and play it again.