Sadly Spoken

I see you there now-
It doesn't seem true.
I try to hold back the tears,
But they keep on coming.
I feel like I'm stuck in a nightmare,
Yet no one gets me out.
The line between reality and dreams
Seems to disappear more and more every day.
Sometimes, I can't find the difference
Between reality and imagination.
I remember when we would hang out and have fun.
You were like my big brother.
You guided me when I wrong
And helped me up when I fell.
I can't believe you're gone.
I get scared sometimes, because I can only remember you vaguely.
This doesn't seem true,
But I know it's real-
When the pain won't go away.