I’ve been living in the darkest phase of rude reality
Where these odd and painful events have totally consumed me
I’ve tried several times to calm down and be optimistic as I used to be
But every word, every pain, every anger and sorrow has ruined me completely.
People will never understand, perhaps that was the reason I took this battle alone
I was dominated by thoughts and I can never call myself, my own
Thousands of voices, millions of thoughts, liters of tears turned ordinary…
Normal, like how people see but unstable mentally and emotionally.
How I wish to live a normal life and walk on a straight path
And just smile at everything and every tears be replaced with laugh
But as I sat and try to close my eyes, all the thoughts in me would start a brawl
Not realizing that memories of trauma and pain makes my tears starts to fall.
How long will these mistake and agony torture my soul?
When will these never ending thoughts set me free… and make me in control?
When will happiness find me? because I have no idea until when can I hold on…
As I keep on battling with the idea that this will end when me with my thoughts are gone.