This Disorder

Schizophrenia is my disorder
Everything seems out order

Sometimes I want to die
I want to die but I just cry
I just wish that I was normal
How happy I'd be with that sense of control

But with these voices making my choices
I doubt I'll see the light of day
Schizophrenia is like a darkness
And medication like a guide

But when medication ceases to work
Again my mind just goes berserk
No I can't just deal with it
My personality is just split

I take my days one day at a time
And one day I'll cross the finish line