Unconditional love didn't exist in my mind until Monday
because I had never felt that kind of love.
It's a love that is full,
a love that feels like it's enough
to fill entire galaxies.
The imperfections make it perfect.
Casey filled my heart in a way no one ever had.
They were a part of my life for five loving weeks.
In a short amount of time, Casey became everything.
Their name forever engraved in my heart
and a name that will bring me heartbreak every day.
I'm so sorry Casey.
I'm sorry I couldn't fight for you
I'm sorry I wasn't able to see the beautiful person
I know you would've been.
I'm sorry I wasn't able to hold you
or be there for you when you were upset
I'm sorry I'm not able to be there to celebrate
every graduation, birthday, or game.
I wish I could've seen the ultrasound
But maybe seeing you would be too heartbreaking,
because only then would I grasp how real you were.