What I Desire
I’ve never been in love, I’m not sure it is real.
To find love isn’t my quest.
I just want a companion,
someone to talk to even if it’s only on the phone.
Someone I can make laugh or make think seriously too.
I think I’m too old for what people call love.
It’s not a body I crave, it’s a reassuring voice,
Someone who likes books and cats and music.
I want something easy, no complications.
My childhood was too complicated, too violent, too limiting.
I don’t think I have the capacity to love.
I want someone to know me, know my secrets, and still care.
But, I think that’s impossible.