Who am I

Who am I, what reason is there for me to exist
I don't understand all this pain killing me slowly inside
It feels like a razor slicing me inside and out till im bleeding alive
Its never enough to just want someone to love
Can't give anyone a heart that's barely even alive
I try and I try to bring it to the surface
So you can mend it but it's hard to resurface
Instead it stays far down deep inside
Refusing to let anyone else destroy what's left
Continuing only to want to find the love of my life
Always running from the pain I finally escaped from, again still trying to hide
Where God is this Love I desperately want so much to find

Nikki88