Why

Why is life so hard?
Why does trouble follow me?
Why do I carry feelings on my shoulders?
Why do I hide behind people?
I just want to fit in
Why do I want to go home when I get to places?
Why does my brain tell me I am still fat when I have lost 200 pounds?
Why do I not look in mirrors?
Why do I chase my dreams?
Why do I believe in rainbows?
Why do I have to God in my life?
Why do I look for answers to my prayers when they are here already?