bad day

sitting here thinking where did i go wrong, getting things back on track is taking so long, im trying to own up and confess my mistakes, but no one is compassionate enough to help speed up the pace, when one door closes another one slams in my face, its making me wanna give up and stop running this race, what am i going to do where am i going to go from here, the way things are going im looking at my future in fear, im scared of trying because i dont want to fail, id rather space off and live in a fairytale, at least in my dreams i have all i want and need, in my dreams im taking the lead, in my dream i am loved the center of attention, nothing is wrong in my dream and no isnt mentioned, but then i wake up and im back to this mess im forced to call life thats nothing but stress