Edge of My Bed

I keep staring at the edge of my bed,
Remembering that night we sat there talking.
It was only a few months ago.
Does it feel much longer to you too?
That was a key moment in our friendship,
One where I felt honored at how much you trusted me.
You told me a secret about you that no other soul knows.
Don't worry, it's still safe with me.
I've got it locked away in a box
And I'll never tell anyone else. Remember? I promised.
Do you worry about all the things you trusted me with?
You shouldn't. I'll hold your secrets 'til my grave.
Even now, even with the way you've treated me.
You abandoned me, but you left so much behind.
I miss you so much. So much that it's nearly impossible to bear.
Especially those little moments
Like when we sat at the edge of my bed.
Just talking, laughing, like we always did.
You're my favorite person to talk to
So I just stay silent now.
No one else thinks I'm funny.
No one else laughs at my jokes.
I guess you're my best friend for a reason.
It's crazy how well you understood me
Because no one else ever has.
To sum it up, no one else is YOU.
I won't tell anyone else my deepest secrets.
Will you ever trust someone else
The way you trusted me?
When they all let you down (again),
Just know I'm still right here.
You can run to me.
I'm so hurt, but not mad.
I told you I could never be mad at you.
I don't quite understand
How you trusted me with so much,
But you ended up trusting rumors over me.
I used to make fun of you for
Having such bad trust issues.
It's not funny anymore.
I can't talk to you,
But I really want to.

Just know that I miss you, okay?
I miss you so dang much.
And I'll be right here when you decide to come back.
Best friends forever. I'll hold my end of the deal.
I hope we get another chance to talk at the edge of my bed.
Even if it's only one more time.