SACRIFICE

To resist pain killers I swallowed as to see them no more
Obey ruthless commandment
I smile in wretched state and many were fooled
A fool for folly

If pride direct my steps years ago I would have die young
Remain in solitude like a thousand years
Till shadow wax with age
To go forth I could taste the ashes of self-brutality

Hells pit I could see with my own eyes
Choices were ruling and vexed
To deliver itself
From the tears of great importance

Sweat for disgrace
Hard work for hunger, and plans announce delays
So I could breathe to live
Live with a martyred soul

Dignity discriminate humility
Say I must pay, pay for my humble deed
Pay to keep silent
And utter nothing when yelled at

Betterment approach itself slowly for twisted ambition
Since then I vexed to self-imprisonment
Unable to escape the jokes of mockers
Self-pity, vile sarcasm, and a smile makes it all better

Mistakes makes dime a dozens
And still there is the contrite soul
I am unable the count the number of times I fell flat on my face
I held myself up

Stand alone and deliver
Deliver thyself if it worth the chaos
The trials ahead, the wind tossed
And the storm flushes my pride out of existence

But I was there when the calm came
And all was not well
I was bruised for reason been
And I was heal

Scars reveal themselves for misbelief
Scars to prove I am worthy
Worthy to acknowledge
To be supported

To care for
To be understood
To be questioned
And hear what sacrifice I have made