Silence is what I chose to do

Silence is what I chose to do

Because I realized my words have no meaning to you.

The memories of our happiness,
Our bond was so strong,
The things you did to make me feel special, Those days seem long gone.

You show me and tell me that you care less everyday.
I keep asking myself why I'm still trying to stay
Well I'm holding on to what used to be
In hopes that you'll come back to me

My heart is so heavy. My love is so grand
But your actions and words have proven that I don't fit in your plan

I've tried to explain the best that I can
That I want us to be happy again
But no matter what I ask, say or do
It all just seems to anger you

My questions go unanswered,
Your feelings you don't voice clear
I'm so tired of the fighting and holding back my tears

Maybe I'm in disbelief,
Maybe my heads in a cloud
For all this hatred you've been giving me
Maybe your true feelings are very LOUD

I'm sorry that I refuse to accept that you really fell out of love
I still believe we were sent to each other from the forces up above
I'm sorry that I'm clinging on to what little hope is still there
I guess I was hoping that you really still cared

I used to say "I love your love" and do you know why?
It's so hard to remind you, it makes me cry.
You would touch me and rub me and kiss me and hold me always, anytime, anywhere, in front of anyone. You made me feel like you thought of me every minute of the day. You sent me love texts, shown desire for me on Facebook, announcing that I'm your wife...
and I guess I thought you'd give me all that for the rest of my life.

Those things are most important to me
It makes me feel like a queen
But for some reason it doesn't matter anymore and just feels outright mean
I'm sad confused hurt and broken
For all these words I have already spoken
And to see no change, no care from you
Makes me think there's only one thing left to do

But I don't want to leave,
I don't want to believe that you really don't love me
I felt the trueness of your heart, you're really telling me you never loved me from the start? You're really telling me you want me gone, to never have me no more?
I've gave you my all, took care of you every fall, never once did I leave you sit and I deserve all this bullshit?

It hurts so bad that when I needed you most
You left me to fend for myself
You didn't show one ounce of care
No concern for my health

You wonder why I flip out
You wonder why I'm hurt
How would you feel if I kicked you to the dirt?

They say when a man loves something he'll take care of it
Why'd you wait 11 years to tell me you're full of shit?

Why do you keep including me in future moving plans
If you don't want to be with me,
why show me land?

You refuse to give me answers,
You refuse to talk things thru
You refuse to acknowledge your issues
And that they are affecting me too

I hate that I'm not that happy person no more
I hate that I don't care about fixing myself up
I hate that I have to beg for you to do anything I ask
I hate that I feel like a burden or as you say, stuck to your ass

We used to do everything together it was never a problem before for you,
In all these years with me by your side,
What else do you expect me to do?
We were a team and barely fight
And now it's bitter night after night
Day after day your annoyed by me
And I just don't understand you see?

There's nothing more I can say or do
To make you want me as much as I want you.