TORMENT

The days get longer and longer without my boys by my side. The nights get darker with each passing time. This unbearable pain is what I try to hide. So I hold back my tears and smile real wide. So People won't see the pain inside. Through the trials and lessons I have faced. The longing for my boys is something i can not take. This time has ripped me to shreds, without them I might as well be dead!The pain is too much for me to bare I try to reach out for someone to care. My pleas are as invisible as the wind, but i know I will not quit on them. I will search the universe and then back again. Till that day when I get to feel their arms around my neck holding tight. Understand that I am broken but broken pencils still write. Until then here alone in a crowd of people with a smile so nobody will realize the agony inside! Daddy loves you Evan and Aydyn till the day I die.