War zone

I have a secret hidden inside of me
I'm one step closer to ending this war I'm in
fighting this addiction nobody even knows
alone walking down this road dark and cold
contemplating my life with a pistol in my hand
these voices whisper in my ear I'm better off dead
nobody sees this war inside my head
fighting back tears trying to pull myself together
Faking a smile to hide the broken mess I really am
look in my eyes, see how close I really am to pulling the trigger
ending this war putting a stop to my pain, snuffing out the voices
I want to feel normal again
I want my hope back, I want my laugh back
This depression is killing the person I once was