Whisper\'s in the dark

I wear a smile, but it's just a disguise
They say they understand, but they don't see me cry
In crowded rooms, I feel so alone
When whispers of friendship chill my bones
You say you have been there, but where are you now?
When the world pulls me down, and I don't know
You laugh and joke, do you know I am drowning inside
Every word is like salt in a wound I can't hide
I reach for you, but you push me away
I can't breathe, like I'm lost in the gray
You tell me I'm strong, But I'm just hanging on
In a lake with fake smiles, I felt so withdrawn
Tears slip like secrets, Hidden from your view
anger boils over, I don't know what to do
I'm tired of pretending, of living your lie
I need to say goodbye but I don't know why
What's left of our friendship feels empty and cold
Wanted a sisterhood but you turned away bold
So here's my goodbye to your mask and the fake
I'll rise from the darkness I'll mend from the break
Every tear that falls I'll start to reclaim
The pieces of me will whisper my name
I need someone who will stay to wipe away my tears
But deep down I know there know one like that here