An apology from Mummy

My baby girl let me tell you a story.

When mummy was around your age she received hurtful words and didn't like herself.

When mummy was your age she was beaten up and constantly felt afraid.

When mummy needed love she received hate.

One day when she was crying all alone after her mother told her what she did wrong, she made a promise not to be the same.

"I won't say hurtful things."
"I won't be mean."
"I won't raise my hand no matter how angry I am."
"I'll hold my child close, I will believe in them."

" Make sure they feel so loved that they won't be afraid."

It's now been many years since that day ....

And seeing you cry so hard I realize that I forgot my vow.

I have turned into the monster I so despised and I don't know how.

Why can't my words be kind?
Why don't I give you a chance to talk?
Why am I being so angry and making you feel constantly at fault?

I no longer see you smile whenever I'm around and I can feel you stiffen up at my slightest touch.

I really want to say sorry but something inside won't let me.

I really want you to feel loved and never lonely.

The problem has never been you it's always been me.

My love I am so sorry.