Broken family

They always say they love you
until the moment they don't.
they up and they go,
like snow melting away the bridges that held us together.
together forever they say
until he walks away.
He goes out the door
I try to chase him but I lose him in the storm.
The storm that's in my mind,
all my thoughts raging inside my head.
"Why did he leave me" "why did he go", "why did he leave me" "why did he go".
my brain's like a broken record player repeating the same lines over and over
in a dark room in the back of my mind.
all day, every day, every single moment of my life.
Was I not good enough for him?
What did I do to make her choose her over me?
What do I need to do to make him see?
He's my Father, he should have loved me no matter what,
but I guess he forgot.
I hope he's happy now cause I'm sure not.