For Now

Have you ever felt like you're allowing this only for
the time being
Because if not then more than ass in you would everyone
be seeing
I know more than a couple of times I've made my share
of dumb moves
And truth be told I'm not the one whom has to show
or approve
This life for me is more than my one time so
far
I know it in my heart and thus who makes me
who I are
At least even in the lost state that I seem to
perceive
Will be my own and not for more did I
achieve
This is the breaking point to my soul
if allowed
Not for me keeping my head in
nor on the cloud
There are days so sad words could
never express
All the things I never spoke nor did I
confess
The rest of the world wants to see to it
that I don't succeed
All the lessons that I should've learned
could never keep me at bay
And I'd be a fool to see and not do or say at the
end of my day
I wonder often how or why I choose the
silliest of battles
Yet never end up like the herds of
any or all the lost cattles
This life for me is the epitomy of death
does that make sense
I know what i want to say and now wait
for the wash to come out in the rinse