Free

Is it that I am trap trying to be free.
Am I deeply scared in the inside and no one can relate.
I always ask myself why was I born?
Do I have a propose in life?
I pray and pray sometimes all night.
Does God hears me?
Is God testing me?
I don't know.

Sometimes I scream out loud to relieve all the pain,
and anger that is inside.
I tell myself that I can do all things through Christ
and then I turn around and think twice like a hypocrite.
Why do I feel so lonely inside?
Do anyone love me? Does anyone care?
I truly believe that there is a God up there,
who is watching me through my time of despair.
But, someone how I have to believe that everything is okay,
it is the only way I get by through the day.

One day I am going to be free.
I am not going to worry about the troubles of this world.
I am not going to hide the pain, and anger.
I am going to be happy.
I am going to laugh.
When I look into my parents' eyes
they won't have to worry because I will be free.
Freedom is a God given right.
Freedom is something that is given to us.
Freedom is what I am going to obtain.