Hours Upon Hours I Pray

The days feel like night, no sunshine in sight, I'll give all my strength and continue my fight but these hours upon hours I pray.
The pain feels like knives cutting away, stabbing inside, I'll keep waiting and waiting for the pain to subside so hours upon hours I pray.
I still love and forgive though it makes no difference, I hurt and I ache, is it just a mistake? Will it stop? Will it end maybe if I pretend that all is okay, that nothing is wrong, no sad look on my face? Oh these hours upon hours I pray.
As the days go by and my life still the same, I'm trying so hard to be strong, to be brave, I hold back all the tears and just do as they say, still these hours upon hours I pray.
Please hold me and love me I whisper as I shake and tremble in fear, I can't hold back the tears, I'm losing my fight and my battle end is near, all I can do is hope God can only hear the hours upon hours I pray.
Why did this happen? Was I bad? please don't be mad. I'm sorry, I understand, you just couldn't take it... It got out of hand, I still love you although I'm sad but I'll keep you in mind while these hours upon hours I pray.
My heart is shattered, I'm lonely and battered, Lord please bring me home for I can't take it anymore nor my body can with hold all the pain anymore, I don't know how much longer my brain can sustain all the hours upon hours I pray.
As the smoke cleared and the light grew near, I knew I was home for the pain was no more, I am finally free from the evil beneath. I can breathe, I can see all the beauty surrounding me, this place is pure, no anger, no fear and I can help those in need of the love they don't receive, I'll help brighten their day when I hear all the hours upon hours they pray.