My New Now

Thank you for all that you are
The best and the worst in my life by far
Just when I believe between us no lies
I find the fake in all of your cries
There's so much about you I can't stand
Overwhelming disgust of magnitude grand
What did you think whilst so mean to me
Was I ever loved by you or did "I" you never see
Like when you made promises and didn't keep
Or when I was sick and you were so fast asleep
I feel you lied and wanted to keep doing just that
I am no fool as most know, as a matter of fact
One day if I'm lucky this will be so far behind
And if ever your names spoken one would have to remind
From this day forward I make this one solemn vow
For the length of my life I will not pass up a new now