To Miss First

For whatever reason you were the one to open the gates of his heart and because you were the start he didn't hold back.

For him you could be compared to none, you were his number one.

As life would have it you played the part of being madly in love until you couldn't.

Slowly you begun to withdraw and slowly he sensed something was wrong.

Your smiles were not as bright, your laughs no longer loud. You were no longer looking at him whenever you two were alone.

He didn't fault you for anything but blamed himself and did all he could to make you happy but little did he know that you were never happy just bored enough to tag along.


Then came the day when your mouth spoke the words he feared. " I'm sorry but this isn't working anymore...I'm not in love with you".

In silence he accepted your request...

In quietness he felt his heart break
In pain he chose never to love again.

So now here am I having to tear down his walls of defense

Having to navigate his wounds and his hurt

Having to reassure him that

"I am not like your first".

"I don't know why she left."

"I don't know why you two met."

"But I do know without a doubt that my heart will take all that you are until you will one day be willing to take all that I am

knowing full well that this time your love will be returned...if you are willing to try again."

So to you who trampled on feelings I might never receive..
To you who had the privilege I might secretly envy.

I will thank you for one thing, if you had never let go I would never have had the chance to meet this treasure of a Soul.