To This Day

It started with a secret.
Words are spoken
Screams are whispered

When you know you could never see her again
It breaks you
Every night knowing what she was doing
Not knowing if you’d see her again

You crack under the pressure
They find you, cracked, broken
And a dam of words breaks
A river of words flows like a flash flood
Everything falls apart

When you know your on your way to ruin her life
Break her trust
Your soul breaks

The way they look at your on your way to spill her secret
The one she most trusted

When you tell the ones she didn’t want to know
You snap

You are under water
Struggling to breathe
Fighting the current

You fall apart in front of her
She forgives you and brings you close

When you are shown the reason you cracked
The reason you cried yourself to sleep every night
THE REASON YOU MAY HAVE NEVER SEEN YOUR BEST FRIEND EVER AGAIN

You fall to pieces

When you see the marks on her wrist

You plummet into a canyon
A canyon of tears
A canyon of death
A canyon of chains


Nothing was never the same
You never look at her the same
She never looks at you the same

Things have changed

To this day
Although you know the shards are gone
And she’s safe from penetrating her wrist
You still wonder at night
When you cry yourself to sleep
If you will ever see her again