Welcome to the real Dark side

Sometimes, I feel this is Life
An endless hole of dark
Where the light fails to shine in my world
And everything seems so gloomy
Music helps but it never seems to touch my soul these days
I want to know what's happening to me
Is this what it feel like to die?
An anchor attached to your heart
And a gun to your head
Suicide on my mind
Nagging in my head
Just shoot me dead
I'll leave a bullet in the chamber for you too
This is my dark life
Welcome to me