Racing Wheelchairs

I have two items on my bucket list
1. To punch someone in the face as hard as i can
2. To be old and race wheelchairs in a senior care center
These two items have been a constant burning flame
Two things that I absolutely have to do before I die
To feel an emotion so strong I can no longer hide my shaking fist
To feel the thrill of life… laughing with friends… living in the moment
not swallowed in regrets and longing
There have been nights I am laying on bed
Thinking things would be better if I were dead
But in the back of mind
Coming through the fog is this picture
Of me old… laughing… racing wheelchairs